Opportunity Knocking

Feeling very opportunistic this morning. Last few days have been marked with glum, sad and nervous feelings for various reasons. However, this morning, the opportunistic part of me was awakened. Like the Sting song, "starting up a brand new day!" In the midst of this transition phase, I see an opportunity to do things I have wanted to do for while. Yet another chance to expand my horizons, to broaden my canvas and paint a few more details in my otherwise already colorful picture of life. The sad part of me has felt heard and acknowledged and now is ready for the opportunistic part of me surface over, allowing it to have it's time in the sunshine.

So what is it that I want to do, or what is that I want to make of this new transition opportunity? Yes, I want to take on projects, I want to create task lists, etc. But I ask myself, what is the underlying needs behind these projects? The decluttering, the moving and creating of space in the house, the gardening projects, getting back to dancing, learn new treatment modalities, exploring new things to do with my husband, etc. There is a long list! So long, that it feels rather unachievable and overwhelming. The question then is; What am I really trying to achieve?

And the answer appeared. Yes, quite literally just like that. Some part of me told me that I want to listen to the other parts of me that I have compromised, put aside, or only partially tended to over the last few years. The part of me that enjoys outdoor activities, that enjoys teaching and sharing, that enjoys creating and living in open and elegant spaces and more. These parts are now seeing an opportunity to rise. They are knocking on the door of my self, asking for a day in the life of Dhruti. What is want to achieve then, is to explore those parts of me to the extent that they feel seen and experienced. I have always said that if a thought or feeling keeps coming back, then there is permanence to it. I know that these parts of me have been knocking several times over the years. I have opened the door to them just a crack, but never wide open for them to feel free. The time is now. The opportunity is here to allow the feeling of being open to explore, and to see where the explorations take me.

Seize the moment. That is my new 40 day challenge. I will ask my self every day for the next 40 days: Did I seize the moment? Did I listen to my parts and feed them freely? The nature loving part, the creative part, the learning and sharing part, the social connecting part, the romantic part and the organized part. Let the challenge begin!